I cried over spilled milk today.
…but then I cleaned it up. The question isn’t, “when does this get easier?” It’s more, “how do I make this better?” I am open to suggestions. I am lonely, and I don’t know how to relate to anyone right now. My heart keeps racing and I don’t even know what I am afraid of; I am already alone. I don’t feel bad for myself, but I want to get out of this…rut. I have a feeling research methods isn’t going to help. I need something basic, simple, understood without saying and without embarrassment or fear. This has to exist.
